having a bit of a struggling day today

i think its got a bit much for me the last couple of days, i have written my invites, booked the suits but all of this is overshadowed by the great big mommy shaped hole!!
i always imagined she would be planning the whole thing with me, it was so hard not to write her an invite!! she should have one i always thought my day would start with her being here getting all excited and coming in the car with me and my brother!! i think the closer its getting its just becoming more and more hard to deal with the fact that she isnt going to be there, she isnt going to be dancing with me or looking at me the way she used to!!
im sorry for this i dont let it out very often, i like to try and keep a brave face on it but today i have struggle, i went to look at some dresses for my daughter today and got tearful in the shop at the thought that my mom hasnt even met my little girl (i was 18 weeks preggy when she died).
im sorry bout this ladies im sure i will be back to normal very soon xx

I get where you're coming from. Although I still have my mum, my dad passed away 5 years ago when I was 19. Some days planning this wedding hurts so bad, when I think he won't be sharing the journey to Church with me, or be there to walk me down the aisle, or make a speech, or have the father-daughter dance. Sometimes I just break down and cry, because I wish he could be there more than anything in the world. But I like to think he will be there in spirit, and be watching over me that day as the proud dad he always was. Our Wedding Day's will be tinged with sadness at the thought of these special people not being there, but you have to remember hun, your mum wouldn't want you to be sad. She would want you to be happy, and enjoy your Wedding. Big hugs. xxxx

Oh mrs I know exactly how you feel. My mum died when I was three, and although I dont remember her at all, I still feel like there will be something missing on our wedding day.

I know its hard for you, but she will be up there smiling down on you x x x

Sending you big hugs, my dad died when I was 12 and although it kind of feels normal to me now the thought of him not being there makes me feel really sad, I cant imagine how hard it must be to have to do this without her x

Oh sweetie - i had a little tear in my eye reading this
All i can say is you will make your mum very proud on your big day - Gosh actually reading all of your posts, what an awful thing for you all to have gone through and lost a parent at a young age.
Big Hugs to you all xxxxxxxxxx