Feeling sad...

My Nan is going to be 90 on the 19th May and I found out yesterday that she has Liver Cancer...

She is in a home now as she kept falling and is really really frail (won't eat properly, only eats fried eggs!).
She has had lymphoma on and off for the last 5 years and has been through several rounds of chemo and radiotherapy.

I feel really guilty as I haven't been to see her in a few months but I am really struggling to see her like she is. We lost my grandad to alzheimers 10 years ago and I was really close to him and was devastated when he died and to me he almost lives on in my nan, but the thought of losing her too is tearing me apart.

No need for replies really, just needed to share... x I know I need to go and see her but can't seem to get myself in the car.

hun ur not alone my grandad has alzimahs and is in a home hes gone from a guy who would be watering his tomato plants on a sunday too being in a wheelchair havin no mobility doesnt even know who i am i cant feel like facing him i dont visit as much as i should i know how feel im sorry too hear of ur grand dad dont know what else too say xxx

Thanks hun, not much to say really, just feeling very teary x

Bigs hugs to you and your family xxx

Big hugs for you, I can understand why its so hard to go and see her, it would be horrible to see someone you love like that and I am sure she would want you feeling bad or getting upset. Hope you are feeling better xx

Big hugs, hun to you and your family. It's always hard seeing someone when it's not how you remember them. x

Aww sweetie, sending some big ((((hugs)))) to you.

x x x